Friday, December 02, 2005
@ 8:04 PM
blasting ; open your eyes - alter bridgewas kinda screwed up last night.
bad memories. shall delete it away.
terrible headache in the wee hrs. tried to slp, but cldnt.
felt like vomiting still. took some pills. alas, fell asleep.
went to sch to get the bks. mum nag. ohwells.
its really run down. got kinda lost at there.
walked frm one building to another, in order to get to the bkshop.
eeks. the bkshop auntie recognize me, i wonder why still.
thats all.
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suddenly, i understood the girl's action.
trying to get into yr sibling's/cousin's crowd.
trying to mix well with them.
trying to talk more, to make yrself getting more attention frm the others.
trying to be more friendly.
trying to make the tense more relax.
trying to make yrself not to be an 'outsider' among them.
these things, cannot be changed at all. you cant mix into them. you just cant.
girl, i was once a girl who tried to do all these.
but the situation doesnt change at all.